A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

pure crap

i look at you
lookin at me
now i know why they say
the best things are free
I’m gonna love you boy
you are so fine
Angel of mine

(fast-forward)
its been a long time coming down this road
and now I know what I've been waiting for
just like a lonely highway
I'm trying to get home,
Love's been a long time coming.

(stop)

sigh.i'm tired in every physical n mental ways..could be due to the lack of sleep yesterday..could be due to trying to be happy..hah,finding happiness can be trying sometimes..especially when u dunno wat you should be happy for,why and who..blah..

went to the chalet very late around 6-7 like dat..n rachel n chin teck were the bbq-ers for the evening heh...n many balls rolled around on the ground..but their cookin(lihui joined halfway)was great..thanks ms0401 cooks!!n i bet the stray cats around will haf a feast ar..i threw one ball to this kitten which looked like my kitten and it started playing with it,so cute!!n jiali n kevin took pictures of it..so adorable..the kitten i mean..it has an audience of ms0401.its a born entertainer lolx..

after eating quite a few many balls n others,caryn,lihui n me went off for walk-walk..wish the other 3 could've been around though..then maybe we could've tok crap the whole nite heh..tried to drag lihui to go to the red house but in the end we u-uturn cos all of us were pretty freaked out..its only us 3 girls,not safe mah hha..n plus my mind was pretty foggy abt the exact way to the house..and it was literally foggy when we neared the entrance to the rows of bungalows n the red house which was amongst it la..so we u-turned n went to the beach instead..as it was abt to rain n it had just like stopped rainin in the afternoon,the beach was pretty dank and dark n desolated..n we heard an orchestra of frogs singing away from their seats in the drains lolx...

it was nice juz sitting at the beach wif lihui n caryn..we chatted for like 3hrs straight until a fisherman n his friend joined our table..i lurve the stories he told us but lihui was obviously freaked out hee *hugs* sorry ger..but these kind of kampung stories are fast fading into oblivion since there's no more kampungs already..n my mum dun really like to share alot wif me..no more kampungs,but the spirits live on literally wahaha..

we came back around 11plus to the chalet to find a super drunk maxine..my first time witnessing a drunk girl friend so it was super hilarious..i do not mean to laugh but it is seriouly amusing. esp when she keeps asking for you-know-who and you know that she's scared of him in the 1st place..sometimes,drunkenness brings out your subconscious desires out front lolx..now i tink he's gonna be scared of her next semester instead of the other way round ..hope she's feelin better though..shall not take comfort in someone's else uncomfortable state..

n some ppl were seriously pissed n high-strung abt the whole affair..sigh..ppl,its the holidays..slack ar..2more weeks onli..n 2morrow results might be comin out..n i'm seriously freaked abt the project based ones like IP(where we exceed alot for our presentation time n we were late.)n of course the 'lethal cannon' grades..har,how do you expect gd grades when its coming from an unstable,firing cannon anyway..either way,will get parts of your body or morale blown off somehow..sigh

anyway,went back to the beach 2nd time around at about 4am with syazwan this time around..coz he said sleepin in the chalet was too squeezy n he gave up..so he hanged out with us all(kk,rachel,timothy(that his name?),caryn,lihui,jiali n me)..alex n chin teck went to the beach like around 2am to sing 'prince of tennis' songs..if it was other couples,it would've sound so romantice la..only mi,lihui,caryn n syaz went to the beach n he was introduced to our 'dark stretch of road' and the musically-inclined frogs lolx..while we were chattin while waitin for the sun to come out,it rained again laa sianz..so we had to faster walk back n joined the rest of the 0401 owls playing bridges outside d'marquez at downtown east..

kk fell asleep few mins while all of us were waitin for the sun to come out(its 6plus n the sun is being cranky i tink)..mi n caryn continued our ghost stories session n i was still deliberating over the fact that i saw 5 shadows when 4 of us were walkin back from the beach la..freaky..wateva,shall nto tink too much..anyway,we went to bk at 8am n i had breakfast of hershey pie n barley(which does not go well together bleurgh)..n i dragged myself home la..no sleep for 24++hours..i can still go on,but i was feelin so dirty n disgusting tat i forced myself to go home..hope the rest who stays on till 2morrow will have fun ar..i know i did.thanks arshad for organisin n bookin it..n thanks everyone for makin it a fun night out together=)

n now not feelin so well because got caught in the rain few times yesterday nitez..my mum said some ppl were 'spiritually' drawn to the beaches without knowing,n i kept wantin to go to the beach yesterday..freakyy..n she said that when she was heavily pregnant wif me,she encountered tis granny who wanted to follow her home n she ran..n she went into labour cos my heart stopped beating..cool,i could've died..n i was forced out of her womb to live..waah..hehe,i shall stop complaining..life is being borrowed for you to live n learn n come back to god after death..living on borrowed life..literally...cool..

we're all living on borrowed lives..n our destinies are already written down for us to live by and discover it second after second..like the 'le papillon' quote..life is just another second..and another..and another..shit happens sometimes..alot of times..n sometimes nobody care much..realities of life sucks big time..life n the world in general is so screwed up..but nobody tells u to stop continuing to walk..coz u cant..like they say..continue moving because once u move,nothing can hurt u..much..at least you'll survive to live another day in this damn damn world..of hope.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 11:16 PM