A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

Funny farm,here i come

sometimes i know i am..

very bitter deep inside

its like life's giving mi bitter pills dat i just keep swallowing and moving ahead

on my own..coz sometimes i think nobody cares abt me so i just continue moving

maybe thats y my walkin pace is v.fast

b'coz when you move,nobody can hurt you

Keep on moving,hurt move at a slower speed


Sometimes i know i trample

on people's feelins n i act like i dont give a damn

hell,i stamp on my feelins and i still continue moving

but like my brother say

why pity others when they dont give a damn abt us one inch?


i know i push others away

i dont want to give a reason why

it'll sound so damn lame la to both others n myself

i know i push my own happiness away

though i sometimes say i crave for it

i dunno why i'm bitter

maybe i taught myself that

or somebody must have taught me that

maybe life taught me that

when i know that when i fall

the only person who will help me up

is myself in the end.


its like throwing dirt on a boomerang

and know that it'll hit me square on my face la


Sometimes i wish for the sun to shine

but how can it be when its winter in my heart


Those silent tears dat i cry

just turned to ice deep inside

those silent tears i keep away

like true ice,they burn my heart..

like when u touch ice with your tongue

it sticks n frosts

n it wont leave u unscath

i dont want to be bitter

i dont want to push others away

but i'm not pushing anythin or anyone

because nobody's there

except me


garr,i'm being a self-pityin jerk again..i hate self-pity..it must be the time of the month...or maybe i'm just wat i said i am..bitter..sometimes i hate myself,n the life i know i'll b leadin..i hate worse when i know that i had someone who's willin to stand by me,and i pushed him away from me..its not everyday a guy drops from the sky n says he's willin to take care of my sister with me..not every guy is willing to stand his ground when he sees my sis's condition n the state of my family is in....garr..i'm being a self-pityin idiot..tats y i keep failin in life i guessed..2morrow'll be a better day..it'll be another battle i live to fight..

"life is one second,and another,and another..life'll always be another second"-Le papillong

Sometimes, living is harder than dying.I guessed this life's irony holds true for terri schiavo,now battling 11days n counting without her feedin tube..freaky

Sometimes i wish the world will end faster..so that disadvantaged people like her and my sis will finally be in peace..funny..as a muslim,i should fear Dooms day..i do,but sometimes my sympathy for these people n others suffering overwhelms my fears..funny..i'm funny..if this goes on,i'll be living where i should be in..in a funny farm..:D

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 1:27 AM