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siti feels horrible

siti is feelin upset n she dunno why..she has been havin a bad feeling since 3pm and she cant seemed to pinpoint at what its all about..now siti cant sleep so siti blogged.

siti Was upset that her camera had finally gone wacko especially the lighting..Real upset coz now siti has no camera to shoot photos for the upcomin nus photo contest..siti feels like takin a loan just to buy a digicam/vidcam/cd player/new computer..siti feels v.poor now..sigh..siti dun dare to ask from her father because he'll just give an emotional blackmail at how he wont haf such money to cough up for..siti never ask for anythin much anyway,just that he dont hurt her mum n sis..siti feels lost now that her camera has given up on her

siti had wanted to sleep at 12 but the bad feelin remained and wont go away since..siti is now upset because of the stupid sense of foreboding and unrest and discomfort ..siti wonders if her brother is trying to commit suicide again..siti hopes not..yet siti dunno what else to pinpoint at..

sigh..siti dont want to write a depressive entry but this sense of foreboding, diabolical n heavy feelin juz wont go away..wat can siti do now..siti learnt that writin an 80min narrative script is super hard..siti tried to write for 1 min..it took her two hours...kaoz..then again,siti was distracted by the ongoing aikido msn's chat..siti is out of touch with aikido..siti is lookin forward to 10may where the nyp trainings will resume ..siti feels happier..

sigh siti sigh..siti damn sianz already,shall end tis entry..

siti suddenly thinks if cash converter got sell digital camera..wats the basic requirements for a digital camera to take gd pics anyway..

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 1:16 AM