A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

Down,never out

i guessed as we go along more n more together, there's bound to be personality differences that bonds or clashes...sometimes its juz mentally tiring just thinking abt it, tolerating those clashes, waiting for the anger/tantrum to die down or watevA....

maybe cos of attachment or wateva (missing the kids, tryin to make sure my mum is nt lonely, blah blah blah) i've becum more mentally tired than usual till sometimes i juz WANT TO gif up..i cant b bothered to Blunt the differences we haf btw us..tired of tolerating, sick of waiting ...of i dunno for what la...he's always been like tis anway..everyone of us haf flaws i admit..bt i guessed when ur tired, these flaws jus seemed to 'highlight' themselves....

n when it comes to relationships, its something i...am, i admit, usually the one to Give up, Walk away, get lost, whateva...if its been some other guy than jasper, this relationship would nt haf last as long as it is...basically, if not happy, leave la..there's no pt trying to make the other party happy/unhappy if you're unhappy/happy vice versa..

yea ritez, 'all i want is to make u happy' motto tat couples usually haf for each other..its crap la ok, i admit...where is the satisfaction/happiness of the relationship if either one is unhappy or unsatisfied ritez?isn't a relationship supposed to be made up of 2 halves to becum 1 whole..nt 1 happy half, or 1 unhappy half coming 2gether...

like jasper said, i'm always..usually unsatisfied wif alot of stuff (gt meh? wateva~)..basicalyl i'm tired..or i'm tiring out..

maybe the relationship's dying..it lasts more than expected, far longer than its expiry date..

or maybe its just me..

i'm tired, and i cant be bothered waiting for him to change (nor do i want him to change if he dont want to change)...n i'm tired of knowing he's trying to make mi happy while all the while i know he's nt happy...

de...wat shud i do? should i walk away..this time for gd? its hard for him to let go of me tats for sure,bt i dont want to drag him down wif me la...

urgh, what shud i do grrrrr...






i'm sorry dear....

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 12:29 AM