A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

life as a news agency

Eyes can blink together, close together, sleep together but they can never meet each other nor see eye to eye Forever.

Like eyes, we're worlds apart, separated, loved but never can meet. A simple overseas affordable trip to him is a short cruise (doesnt matter if its not really worth it e.g 400+ per person for a 2D1N) It doesnt matter the ship goes Nowhere as long as long as its still considered an overseas trip far more "safer" than Malaysia or Bintan. In short, life is a luxury that is meant to be spent having fun with his own life (hey, maybe it applies to all guys - e.g my brother) to be decided on the trip now and now and now without consideration on the rest of the parties involved because anyway, it was left up to ME to decide because it was MY idea to bring other people along...so whatever it is, its MY fault. even though its HIS trip.

Like...how selfish can that be?

alternatively, My life is like a news feed...some kind of voluntary news agency...

2 nights ago:
- brother sent his kids back
- brother talked to his ex-wife happily on the phone, got chided by his wife
- brother hit wife, screamed at daughter's ear (whu's only 4 mths old)
- brother exits. wife chased after him (with baby) as his wallet was with her. wife left alone to deal with crying daughter whole night long while he disappeared

Forget it, my life is an ongoing production for which the ending is still open for interpretation.

1 night ago (ok Yesterday):
- dealt with a boyfriend who only goes "up to you" even though its his trip
- received urgent phone call from mum to go home. her adopted aunt is on the verge of death. Sister cried whole day (she is sensitive whenever death approaches anyone we know e.g my late grandfather)
- rushed home (with "up2u" boyfriend) only to find out my sister has just stopped crying and finally fell asleep
- received news my aunt had a miscarriage after 3 months.
- (still dealing with "up2u" boyfriend who finally, was mollycoddled into playing computer games) by which by then i was pissed off
- received news my aunt has just tied her fallopian tubes
- fell asleep with sis by my side (she likes to sleep with me these days)...half an hour later, she literally kicked me out of bed.

15mins ago
- had another fight with boyfriend who is trying to make amends. but i shut him out.

Summary: 1 child abuse, 1 marital abuse, 1 premature death, 1 on the verge of death.

i should start on the headlines.

LIFE...is to be continued.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 9:51 AM