A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

midnite monologues...

siti does not like to be forced out of bed.siti will be a very grumpy girl when she is forced out of bed.siti will be a big meanie and scare everybody when she is being forced to wake up and get out of bed.siti does not like her dreams being snatched away from her literally when she is forced to face reality by getting out of bed.siti dont like to be woken up.period.

garrr,had my share of sleep too early and now i cant sleep already...was feelin hungry so grabbed some breads to eat since mum didnt cook much today...visited my uncle who's goin for his heart bypass around this time now..sad,i dont like hospitals..hospitals remind mi of those times when i had to visit my late grandpa,and STUDIED there too,cos my o'levels was around the corner that time...hospitals bring bad memories.esp TTSH..i hate hospitals.now i'm scared i'll go back to sleep and have nitemares...i freaking hate hospitals...this noon i was having this thought what if there is a conspiracy involved btw the doctors and the government..like how they refused to operate on ppl aged 70 and above because they're scared these ppl cannot take it and die on them...what if this conspiracy means that the doctors/govt Wants them to die instead..cos as govt goes,must regulate the country and beware of overpopulation and lack of this and that mah..and singapore IS experiencin an ageing population too..freaky...anyway,its just a thought,seriously hope its not true and just my meaningless thought...do i get sued for this thought anyway?:D

anyway,was tryin to help tis indian man besides my uncle's bed cos he was obviously not comfortable n was tryin to get up..n this bloody RUDE nurse came up to me and said to leave him alone,cos anything happen to him it'll be my Responsibility..like hello,you think i'm stupid ar?so what if ur a freakin nurse?you should have come faster since the bell has been rung to get your freaking attention right?when ppl sa singaporeans are becomin apathetic,its not because we want to be see?its because of ppl like the freakin nurse who thinks too highly of herself that we ppl arent even allow to extend a helping hand to help our patients in need in whateva limited ways we could arr...seriously hope she's not from nyp nursing sia..so freakin rude and arrogant..idiot...its not the 1st time i experience such freakin rude nurses lo...i remembered at GH once i was helpin this old man with jasper at like 8pm at nitez..that old guy was wanderin around town when he complained of heart problems so we took him to GH ar..n then this nurse was like 'oh,just leave him alone.he always come and go one.the doctor'll treat him and he'll go off again on the streets in the morning.pls,just leave him alone'..kaoz..i made my complaint loud n clear for some passings doctors to note Who she is and What she had said..seriously hope she'll be reprimanded..n to my 2 budding nurses,dawn n fara,i hope you 2 arent taught to be that cold-hearted..i know you 2 are not,cheerios:)..

feel like throwin a tantrum..feel v.kiddish now..just feel like bawling n tearing my hair out n wail on the floor like little kids too..like something missing and i know what or who is missing..waaah..feel like bawling,i missed having monkey by my side....waaaah...i just missed monkey...:'(..siti,grow up de...siti is almost 20.siti should not throw tantrums like little girls or boys.siti should not try to cry so much at every little thing.siti should grow up and be more composed and not be so wild up front.siti should not let her emotions get ahead of herself.siti should have a stiff upper lip and stop trying to act like a baby.shit la,who comes up with all this 'should have' phrases anyway..its not fitting for siti.siti acts the way she wanna acts and let others think whhat they wanna think,even if they think wrongly and badly of siti.frankly,siti does not care.siti is beginning to love talking about siti in 3rd person language...siti bids gdnitez and ends this post.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 2:39 AM