A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

siti feels horrible part 2

even as a friend,i hurt him time and again..maybe its best we stop contacts n let him move on and find someone who dont hurt him as much as i do..the more we're together as friends,the more stubborn we become wif each other so much dat we're probably ruining our friendship..sigh

and my uncle fainted and got himself re'warded' back to NUH..sigh 2

and i juz went nuts and screwed my happy 3 day weekend with the natgeog.competition filming..sorry to lihui,bifeng,meemum,caryn n roshi dat we haf our weekend pretty much ruined :(..juz hope we haf fun and learn alot 2morrow ar..we have a lot of catchin up and rubbing shoulders with the camera n the tripod..i'm so not lookin fwd to havin to be around my Grandmother's Sisters' Families tomorrow whom i hardly know also..but whom i know enuf to like stay away from??:D..when old malay women flock together,it means danger harr..

and i juz printed my dad's payslip..the lowest this year coz he had to undergo some course i tink..i shall not berate him anymore for now..shall spend the energy helpin my mum at home more ..can foresee next month he'll be havin MORE Overtimes and night shifts so sayonara daddy..now i see you,now i dont..sigh 3

i hurt monkey,i hurt myself,i hurt to see my mum hurtin,i hurt not being able to do anything..if i go out and find a pt job,it means less time to spend with her n sis..i wonder if its because of my job i held for 11months last yr dat made my parents relationship more estranged..is it my fault..sigh 4..it must be..coz i'm the onli child that connects them beside my sis..like i always knew,i'm a horrible daughter..sigh 5..

gimme strength to hold my family together
make them happy and well..all by myself..

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 11:33 PM