A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

friends relationships

Fact: I have too many friends..then again,one can never haf too many friends
Myth: i don't care for most of them
Truth: I do, but sometimes its hard to show or even know dat i care when to me,some of them just 'wasted' away, keep to themselves and pretend they're okay or well...hard to say and feel,move on without mi..but those who knows me know mi period

friends...hard truth..they come and go..its a fact..some stays, some keeps constant contact(pls do)..some are so busy even to contact dat i feel like strangling them bt..like quoted from one of my dear friend raihan's poems..

'Hold a friend's hand thru times of trials
let her find love thru a hug and a smile
but also know when it's time to let go
for each and everyone of us must learn to grow'...

and there are some who die..and the painful ones are those who just fades away..

in my opinion, friendship Fades..bt they never die..at least for mi, i will not let them 'die' on me..just open the doors of friendship lor..wat do u get from closing anyway..yea sure,there are some whu Betrayed Backstab Badmouth u bt y waste time or throw away friendships just cos of their flaws..humans need each other for reasons and being humans, we all haf flaws some of which are so disgustingly low that u tink 'why shud i be a friend to such a person'..then agn,who am i to judge ritez..then agn, i did lose one friend whu did all of the above to me..not cos i closed the doors of friendship, i just..stopped talkin to her and we both graduated n lost contact..then agn, not sure wat i'll do if i meet her next time though...

then there are some friendships that never really take off or 'develop fully' haha...for example classmates or camp mates or bunk mates or wateva..situations where its really chaotic and consist of too many ppl u dunno who to start to mix aroudn wif first or with..eg my OBS camp mates made up from fellow PJcians and SAJCians..aww,now i realised dat i lost Ying Ying's number and my obs instructor's DIN number..awwwwww damn..

i 4got wat i wanna blog abt..anyway true friendships are Not fragile, precious yes cos not alot of ppl takes time to think that the moments in between are fleeting and treasured..and that wheneva u say bye bye to ur friend or loved ones,u dunno if u can say another 'hi' to them the nnext time ard..i'm sorry i never get to say goodbye to u nana..nor to alot of other ppl..

ooh, jia li just ask mi to grow up haha..hmm,oh well..in my opinion,i grown up enuf for my past entire life..for now let mi be 20 and just let mi tink of trivial things like wat color to paint my toenails and beautifying myself for vanity's sake like other girls my age do..ho ho ho..i'm not Trivialising those issues though..i just wish sometimes i can actually think of them as Major issues like other girls do instead of thinkin 'ok, my life's is mapped out in the sense that when i grow up,i haf to take care of my sister..' ever since i was 7 or 8..

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 12:53 AM