A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

are u strong enuf?

ooh,i wanted to blog abt my work b4 i got mad n found out i got backstabbed..

first,i wanna tok abt alan,the guy in charge of me..his eyes are so sad la,its so obvious there is something or someone missing..n i think it came from the demise of his relationship wif a malay girl(which lasted for 5 years)..n he kept tellin me to be realistic abt my relationship with jasper,which i am..n he kept emphasising tat 'love is not a fairytale'..maybe in singapore..in singapore,love sucks. seriously. i learnt tat when i was like 14,i am learning dat now as i grow up day by day..love sucks seriously,esp in singapore..b'cos in singapore,love means being realistic and practical and hey,if love is prim and proper and safe,its not love,its juz followin by the bloody boring rules dat we live most of our lives by..singapore is a nation wif too many rules,and not enough love...bt dat doesnt mean there is no love.

alan's love story was doomed from the beginnin b'cos firstly of both families' objections,thus leading to a lack of confidence in his love 4 her or even in himself,n eventually it ended..bt somehow la,i tink it is not the end yet for him or her..moi,the eternal idealist in love and life..n to me,its sad dat he had to finish it off b'cos in his own words 'as the relationship becomes deeper,it becomes harder,and you can see its not going to work out, SO must be REALISTIC'..aiyo,now my head is full of the words 'realistic'..

not 2 say dat i'm not being realistic..like IN MY OWN WORDS 'if its not going to work out,its ok b'cos i'll be ok..i always am somehow'...^v^ nt sure abt jasper though..howeva,i rather he walk away from me b'cos it means he'll not change his mind n return,rather than mi walk away..b'cos i noe even if i walk away,he'll still be standing there waiting for me to return...how i know this?b'cos i tried it b4 wen we broke up the other time hee..

ah,dowan blog already though there's so much i wanna write abt..bt seriously,love is not jus abt being realistic..talk abt being realistic,i'll gif u this food for thought. If ur bf/gf gonna die any minute soon or died moments ago,will u be able to withstand or accept the loss bravely? if u do,that means u don't love him/her as much as u think u do, 'nuff said.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 9:12 AM