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sulking...

Sulking big time dunno for wateva reason...1 qn..or rather line keeps running thru my midn all day

There is no incentive for me to stay, is there? What the fuck i am learning, i don't really know if they're right...am i doing as per my job scope? as it is frm the first day of work, i don't the fuck know...even asking the person whu's supposedly has been what i've been thru..jz gave me the lame 'i forgot what i did. i did everything'..so much for asking me to think thru durin national day what is it i donno..of which my Immediate response to him was; 'i dunno what i dunno. maybe u shud tell me since u were in my position'...no sarcasm to him bt its what i meant. i dunno what i dunno...and from the pov of my a'lvl geog (or was it lit) lecturer, If u dunno what u dunno, that's the scariest part..

sigh,n like i told the poor guy,i'm gettin sick of interviewing and receiving the same typical answers..man,i shud be more patient,its only been wat 3mths?

i'm losing my passion,maybe its nt meant to be and i shud go back to ap-ing jobs like shida..and lost myself in it

dayah;if i were u, i would think a)pay, 2)management 3)...

she forgot the third part bt i can fil in for her..its Passion..working where i am now, of courst no. 1 and 2 are goners/nothing to be considered for..its the 3rd i'm holding on which i'm losing..or maybe its cos i feel stunted that i dont seem to learn as much as i shud...

ahhhh,get me out of this self-pityng hole like some frog in the well...once the Q word comes to mind,there's no turning back,tats pretty much for sure...

ah!!!

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 1:28 AM