A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

gnawing deep inside of me like 1 itchy mouth tikus

i hate this feeling where every thought just hurts. i know it means i better go to sleep asap to get rid of this feeling..sometimes i think i'm sadistic putting up with everything's thats whacking me inside out..sometimes i know i'm crazy jz continuing to move forward wif a smile on my face..(note:i don't force myself to plaster a smile)but i think i'm juz too used to handling all the pain turning it inside from out.

surrounding myself with friends/ppl around me is always My Magic Solution to curb this stupid feeling..bt as the clock struck 12,and my body is yelling at me to go to sleep and stop typing (like now)...i jz addict myself to chatting online while stepping on this feeling

and this sunday,there's event again..and next weekend is full of observance ceremonies to send photographers down...thank gdness nt ALL the ceremonies are at the same time/same day;its split 3-3...bt STill..wif the pathetic freelancers i haf..most with no own dslr..and Still,wif the pathetic rates my company is paying them, its just gnawing at me GRR!!

and i had nightmares that two clients are chasing me for articles ysterday nitez..and at the start of this week, i woke up thinkin it was saturday afternoon for 5 minutes...fucking sad life can? ARGH!

I must save up asap so i can enjoy full time studying again! and freelancing.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 12:07 AM