A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

Pouring cement over Yr mistakes.

When my pay is not enough to help my family...or rather those who my mum hinted to mi to help...though i noe she's nt forcing me,she's jz voicing her troubles out bt still...

i don't understand. as much as i try to help, there is only so much mama and me can do if you refuse to help yourself OR yr own family.

You divorced yr 1st wife b'cos u went off to batam to enjoy yrself and see where it got u? yet, u turned the entire shit ard, making yr 1st wife the scapegoat for the divorce..u got the cheek to tell me you trust your friends More than yr 1st wife, see where they get u in the end? (and they'r still happily married, dumb ass) In the midst of it all, your 3 yg children suffers. and suffers bad at the hands of yr 1st wife. Nw that u moved, we don't even get to see them. U refused to step into our hse, but you nvr feel the misery that yr children, mama and mi feels all this while b'cos of yr refusal to bow down and make if not mama,ur children a tiny bit happier...

and with money being tight, you MOVED hse jz After yr 2nd wife gave Birth at a PRIVATE HOSPITAL...as instructed by yr stupid best friend (whu's happily married and living comfortably more than you!) Cik ju kept bitchin to mama that u received some money out of selling yr previous hse bt you denied so (mama and i have never any intention of wanting a little of yr money if so)

i'm grateful that my cousin is stayin wif u to help yr wife and yr newborn OUT..bt without giving her pocket money, how do you expect them to eat? Its been a consecutive 2 wks since yr wife and newborn and my cousin come down to My hse, like hungry beggars pouncing on the food in my house,and what little my mum's money she gt...Don't you realise that? or if you do, do u even care? After all that has happened and is happening, u still stuck to yr Stupid, self centred resolutions to Enjoy yourself at the misery of Others.

What do i do now? as much as i Should help you (as much as i Don't Want to!) i don't have Tat much pay to begin wif..maybe this is one of the reasons why civil servants are civil servants...maybe i shud start considering too instead of chasing n working for my passions.

N i'm still shocked that you made a promise to our late grandfather and you never realised it till he passed away.. SIX years ago.

Is it me or am i subconsciously trying to fill cement over your mistakes all these years?

Sigh. i need more money; come tuition jobs, come.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 9:50 AM