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Undergoing change

No surprised bt finally, we graduated...and my mum was more excited than i was lol..i promised her when i get a degree, then i'll buy the robe for her as souvenir LOL!...

so roshi and i were talking abt change..for the past 3 years, whu've grown up, whu've not, whu've matured, whu've not (and maybe never will)..

"It's sad when we have to think for a long while about which one of them is or has become the most mature" - Roshi...yup darling. i hope its because we don't know them That much. Bt even from a distance, there are those who hopelessly cannot or Will never grow up or out of their comfort zones..bt we'll see. surprise us.

bt for those whu've changed in our opinions, my respect goes out to them, especially ppl in my clique like Jiali and Yen lin. basically all, we made it thru dear Er-meis, Together despite the Underestimation (Hey,we were able to produce the canon competition video while multi-tasking our TEP projects without lacking any responsibility for both; Remember the lines "Maybe they should join the other groups"? (i don't have to note the wave of support we received frm our mentors right?), Fuckingly obvious favouritism and the "invisibility" cloak we had to wear especially the final year. We graduated out of the shit and mud like finally.

"We'll never see Them again right?" Right again...Then again, god knows if we'll ever see bifeng again! LOL!

I know i have changed so much in regards to my personal life...i'm nt so sure if its in a good way...sometimes looking back at the me then and me now, i scare myself. For deep down, i know without my mum, i would have hanyut long long ago..i shudder to think abt what i'll becum when she's gone...Abt love, life, my brother's divorce that wrecked his kids' lives, the aftermath of it all, his constant attitude troubles, my mum being sucked n bullied upon in the midst of it all, my grandma,my father...standing strong (and maybe emotionless all the while) and of course, falling in and pushing out love...i came into poly on a bed of roses, i graduated single).

Looking at his name in the graduation book, i felt a wave of sadness, resignation passing over me. Armed with my diploma and an empty heart, i made my final steps as a student out of nanyang polytechnic, knowing that what i have to do or protect for the next phase of my life, is standing besides me - my mum

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 11:00 PM