A Curse in Disguise
Yesterday -Me: "Nampaknye semenjak ti kerja, gaji papa makin kurang"
Mama: "itu namanya tak berRezeki"...short of saying dolat...in short, it seemed i'm not earning enough for my family no matter how much tuition i give
the thought of going back to studies gets further out of my reach; it's like getting stuck btw a rock and a hard place. No work = no money to help support the family. Work = still ain't enough for surely, he will come knocking in need of my money...
which in any way boils down to the fact that my savings basically go to him or well stagnant till it goes to him..
which when push comes to a shove, i'll probably need to sell the things i love most for now (besides looking for a better-paying job which will also probably results in the same cycle wif bigger sums involved) on top of now, having to pay for dental check-ups (and i might have to go see a specialist)
Ok, now i just have to gather my courage to sell my beloved cameras. BOTH.
Money can be earned. and i have that steely determination to rise from the ashes no matter how many times my world crumbles. Besides, what i lend to him is nothing compared to the amount it takes to raise me up all these years.
right?
i so need a good sleep after a good cry for now i'm having a pounding headache.
why is it again that having lunch wif him (which i looked forward to at first) now seems more like a curse in disguise...
posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 1:54 PM
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