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hapi 1st muharrram

hapi new year to me
happi new year to me
happi new islamic yearrrrr to me
hapi new year to me

..its the 1st muharram..and my auntie just cancelled her plans to go visit my late grandpa's grave..when she heard i wanted to go to the picnic..i was jus kidding..y cant we haf a picnic at the graveyard anyway..i lurve the graveyard at dusk..its beautiful.

then agn nuthin to be hapi abt oso..dad just asked mi for 300bucks to pay his much overdued bills and basically,300 bucks not enuf lor..and he asked mi 500 bucks last month after i got my study grant..though i am not a 'numbers' person, i do try to keep track where and why my money leaks see..

2.000 study grant
- 500 borrowed by dad
- (700) including my Own transport allowances, 21st birthday gifts, xmas gifts, jasper's bday gift, 2nd year upcoming anniversary gift for jasper (half bought and its all the way in like..June haha) basic needs such as Food(when mum and he dun haf pocket money to give me) One or Two measly new clothes ..some Privileges i tried to gif myself such as going to the zoo wif Jasper the other day, treating myself to Sakae wif val n yun the other day, Seoul garden wif norisha the other other day and playing HOuse of the dead 4 which probably adds up to another 50 bucks
so thats 1200 bucks GONE...

+ 200 my dad returned mi out of the 500 i borrowed..
+ 100 which i managed to save in my piggy bank this month or so
- 300 which i'll be taking out to give my dad (duh, he gave me jsut so i could gif him more Right?)
- 80+ bucks for my handphone bill incld. the sim card etc etc tat cums wif signing on a new line..

so theoretically i shud haf aroudn 700-800bucks left ritez..then agn,once i pay my bill and take out the 300 bucks,i'll probably be left abt 500 ..deh,where did 300 bucks go to? hmmm

so after highlightin my breakdown of money gone down the drain, faster than tap water leaking..it boils down to the qn;why the hell my dad wants to borrow money from me to Pay his freaking bills..and more bills of stuff we Dun even see like a supposed laptop and a plasma tv both of which we Dun haf...and he had a 3000bucks bonus Last month..so his account remains a lifelong mystery for Mum and Me..and hey,showin mi the bills dont work ok..i may gif u the moneny bt..Why again am i giving u money to Pay the bills?besides the unfortunate or fortunate fact tat i am ur daughter..i'm not even working for gdness sake..

it leads me to think..he wun rest until my account is dry isit..it leads me to think..gosh if i go to work next time,he'll probably be breahthin down my throat for More money..and my mum is foreva hoppin mad at him workin his ass off for bills that never seemed to be done paying..

and there's tis shameless Old bitch whu kept calling him when he is not workin..and Twice, she hanged up when she Heard my voice..wtf..

yea,its a new year indeed..same old same old..

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 12:05 PM