A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

My mum....

therein lies a new fear...of my mum losing her sanity...i mean,any normal person would already lost theirs if they'd been my mum...in facing the following situations..

1)having a child that would never be independent..that would nvr grow up...that would nvr marry,someone whom she constantly fret upon 24/7..and i meant 24/7

2)an eldest son whu refused to grow up..whu went thru a broken marriage,whu insists that the world bows at his feet and does what he thinks is right...whu depends upon my mum when he's stuck in a tight situation...

3)me..the middle child whu tries all her best to be 'sensible' and 'happy' so as not to make her fret more...

4)her own mother whu broke her 1st marriage selfishly..and whu continues to be a challenge wif regards to her own satisfaction/selfishness without much thoughts to my mum's own problems...a mum whose mouth like the loudhailer,...etc etc and the list goes on...

5)my dad...whu's up to his nose in debts and whu's hardly a doting husband to her..nvr celebrate their wedding anniversary b4 ..whu's nt home,whu's nt ard when she needs him...

6)her own grandchildren at the mercy of their incapable mum..and ya,i do meant incapable...

Pray,tell me,how do i ease those burdens of her..how do i make her happy..while trying to keep her sane...already jus now,she panicked n made me asked almost all the shops that were left open for my brother's contact lens solution which he asked us to buy...like minimarts,budget shops..NEVER sell such things in the 1st place..as much as i tried to entertain her...i need more strength that i already haf now...

she needs me..bt i'm running out of solutions...n i already lost my own pillar of strength..nt that i'm complaining..but i guessed tis is the best solution for us both..no matter how selfish i seemed..bt we'll be okay..we'll cope in our own ways..like now,he's consumed wif his games while...i stand alone in the rain....Still,its better that i stand alone in the rain than being sheltered under an umbrella wif an unhappy person ..who..loved me more than i love him.

urgh~

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 11:13 PM