A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

speakin in 3rd person...

i'm too tired to fall ill; i'm too tired to even cry

maybe this year is the year siti will finally break down.

but i will not, for i can't.

this year 20 January 1428 (Happy new year to all muslims); siti will

1) pick up and play the solo game again after 2.5 years
2) be more dedicated to her family
3) try to find the meaning of happiness in her life; happiness which is already bestowed upon her with god's will; just that she's too stressed out running ard in circles to see it
4) find her way back to god's path after being lost again and again and again; insyallah.
5) be stronger than she already is (even though she knows her strength will kill her if she goes on like this but she won't)
6) not worry her heart and mind so much abt everything
7) be earning money (be it working or studying or both) to support herself and her family
8) start depending on herself more than usual esp when it comes to matters of the heart (yea,i'm develpin a split personality of myself whom i can depend on all the time 24/7)
9) not hope so much when it comes to love for love is selfish, blind, and something i don't need.
10) not cry so much b'cos the only 1 whu's drying her tears is herself, as learnt frm her prev. relationship

either tat or siti will start to drink, smoke and sleep around and have suicidal tendencies - which she knows she will not because siti is too strong for that.

she has to be.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 10:57 PM