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say tis isnt goodbye

Say tis is not forever...so i wun haf to say gdbye

..feelin damn low tis week..today..worst still,my mum is bearin most of the pain herself b'coz she loves the kids so much it breaks her heart at the tot that now they may b taken away frm her forever..she kept repeating the "last" goodbyes of tonight's event when their Mum took them(2 of them,forcefully) away frm my brother n my mum..It seems finalised..the separation tat could happen(possibly happen)btw my brother n his wife..since the wife already packed the kids and her stuff out of her hse..my mum is haunted by how the younger 2 kids never wanted to be taken away..danish's sad face..n fina's tantrum when she was forcefully took away..i wasnt ard coz i was at wk..shit me..n b'coz of tat,they were taken away..y is my brother so dumb as to let the kids go anyway..i'll fight to the death for the kids even if it means spittin in the face of the law that mothers are granted the rights to own her kids..

n i'm still upset by how the wife treated my mother tis whole wk..my mum actually worried herself sick waitin at the window to see if she cums back home to her hse(which faces our hse) everyday..only to haf the wife shut off the phone n ignore my mum's presence completely(even though she knew my mum was watchin her as she ran off into her bloody father's overprotective arms)..i'm damn pissed..its enuf she n my bro had a fight..dun hurt my mum damn you,wat kind of selfish creature are you being brought up by a set of parents n yet lacking of basic manners called 'respect?'~Dun love my brother anymore?fuck off la,leave the kids alone since ur too busy tryin to chase a new life,a new job,a new guy..dun even care if the children haf eaten their meals anot..wen the children were at her mother's place the other day,they called my mum at midnite complainin they havent eaten..what kind of mother is that?n she wants custody of the entire kids if they end up 'd...'

My brother knew wats its like to grow up without a father n tats y he wants the wife to come back home..for all the quarrels,he's been the one lickin her boots n her father's boots ..yea sure,its his mouth n sometimes shitty attitude tat starts it..bt it takes two hands to clap ritez..yet the father-in-law disallowed his daughter frm returnin..like my niece said succintly 'what kind of grandfather is that'..

n now my mum's fidgetin wif worry n sadness coz she miss the kids n she might not see them again..it really hurts to see her like dat..i mean i already cannot tahan my own tears frm fallin when i said gdbyes to the kids b4 i left for wk..now must continue to watch her becomes like tis..damn them..i'm not bloggin anymore.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 2:01 AM