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happiness is a tiring job

i'm very tired and i dunno y..is it because

1) covered the pesta perdana press conference this afternoon for sungguh?..
2) left office @ 1230am after deedee's vo recording for the exercise vid?
3) left office around 1130-1230 for last thurs,friday,this monday and yesterday?

but i think i'm tired emotionally more than physically..

1)trying to take in brother's argument with mama on monday because of me because mama told him off how rudely he treated MY father all this while..though i've been bloody patient since like august 2005(when the crap began to happen n unroll), obviously my patience and my head had been squashed by his egoistic 'oh,its her dad,WHO cares'..if you don't care abt MY feelings, at least care abt mama can?y cant u bloody see wif ur freakin eyes and heart (if you do haf any left over after u used them on urself) hw ur killing her slowly N cant u see how it hurts her, if nt me because i have to pick up the crap for u (every single time)..sak bodoh seyy, all this while i RESPECTED him like a brother b'cos since i was born, i looked up to him like my REAL BROTHER...nvr really think that he had hated my dad n me all this while..heartbroken sia..

2)trying Nt to sms my NEW sis in law 'who the hell u tink u are to treat my father the same way like my brother, and to throw his ex-wife's stuff one corner (like, literally) just cos nw ur officially married to him'..as much as i do like her,she's brainlessly educated..

3)trying to be happy, to have a smile on my face, to let everyone know i'm ok..

the final pt hits the bull-eye..aaarrgh,i want to cry bt i haf no more tears left...all spent crying over the admin work i was put thru the last 2,3 weeks..

argh, PENAT!!!!!

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 11:40 PM