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what happened to the sweet old times of being 16 and 17?

Sometimes, late in the nights, i would wake up to think back of memories long forgotten..memories that were short, sweet and most often left unappreciated, unnoticed by many, even by the parties involved..

like the time we argued whether it was a date or not..heck, i didnt know if it was..yes, i was that dumb to know what's a date and what's not..and i ended up wearing slippers while he wore pretty smart ..i'm still embarrassed whenever i think abt it haa

or like those times we sat at the void deck, juz the 3 of us, me him and his friend to read the sunday papers..or just to talk shop til his friend moved away

or the time when we talked on the phone to discuss the weather, and wHether it was a gd idea to go to the library 2gether for it was looking dark and stormy

or simply those times when we walked home 2gether

then there were times we bump into each other in the neighbourhood..

and that particular time i encouraged him to go after the girl he liked

and simply those little talks we had 2gether..

or even the times we fought and there was that one particular time, somehow it hurt, and i didnt even know why we fought in the first place..he was just in a bad mood to pick up a fight literally..i guessed

and then recently i tried to pour it all out, to let him know how much i missed those times, missed leaning on to those i trusted so much...and i think, and i know i ended up sounding like the loser everyone turned into when they fell out of love..needless to say, the conversation was abruptly ended by me.

and then there was that other guy whom i turned to when i was down..somehow it was him i turned to..and for some reason, his logic of kicking me up when i was down worked..even though the advice that was given sometimes sounded dreadful..

who almost wanted to give me a hug on his birthday..haa, that was cute and awkward..has a gf now, devoted like i always knew he would be..

and then there's Daddy who broke up with Mummy..those late night msn chats we had, the darkness in his world which he can't seemed to escape..and i know it only gets darker after the break up..bt somehow i can't reach out for him in the darkness of his world..and mine

for like i said, those memories that i treasured, those were itty-bitty memories that mostly went unnoticed, unappreciated by many...

i guessed once i was wif jasper and also due to crawling our way in the dark to find our own identities, we just drifted apart into our own worlds we thought we finally created to seek the solace we desired..jasper and me, them and their lives.., those guys i trusted just melt away somewhere in my heart..we grew up, we grew apart..

what happened to those sweet old times of being 16 and 17..?

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 7:06 AM