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life joyrides

Life, for the past 2 months or so, was, remains crazy. From happily freelancing to temping to now back to where I started (production), its been a whole circus of life joyrides and its only The start.

Sometimes I looked back and ponder how much simpler life was 2 months ago (yup,it's only been 2 months since i left DF) but after i crossed the bridge (like finally i jumped off the ship) i reached heaven, hell and now stuck in between both, and i've yet to make up my mind where I should be,for the good of myself, my family dunia akhirat.

and there are times now, when during my rides to pick up lunch or watsoever, i just couldnt wait for all of it to be over, back to where life was simpler, 9to5/6pm but deep inside i know i felt so irresponsible back then and so disgusted wif myself that i wasnt learning as much as i crave, i wasnt committing myself to the max as i should have done ..and now that i've got my wish, i received a huge steep learning curve cos my first big project from my v.first day back on board was DRAMA!despite tellin myself 'heck, if i can get thru Drama, i can get thru ANYTHING' sometimes i just think 'is this worth it? is working as such Worth sacrificing time and my other commitments like family, boyfriend and time for myself...and my daily prayers (which is actually my own responsibility to find the time to do it in time)

insyallah, everythin will be fine.

smile,smile,smile,smile,smile.

i love my family,my niece/nephew are sleepin in the other room, i miss dear so much my tears fall when i call him and my mum and dear sis are sleeping. in this hour of the night, my life remains beautiful, despite everything. subhanallah.

prayers 4 the nite: allah, please give me strength, give my mum health and give my brother the kesedaran that his wife n him so badly need to be able to come back to us one fine day. and give my nieces/nephew the peace/constancy they so badly need in their young lives.

"If instead of showing strength by spending billions on weapons of war, the West was to build a mosque on Ground Zero, it would be a remarkable symbol of our understanding of the Islamic point of view. It would be a major step towards world peace." - paul arden

Believe, and you will be pleasantly surprised :)

newsflash for my nite:

"If people constantly reject your ideas or what you have to offer, resign. You can't keep fighting and losing, that makes you a problem. If you are good and right for the job, your resignation will not be accepted. You'll be re-signed, on your terms. If they accept your resignation, you were in the wrong job, and it is better for you to move on. It takes courage, but it is the right move" - paul arden

ta-da!

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 3:17 AM