A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

Sorry kiddos!

*slams door*..there He goes,there he goes again..shucks,dunno whether to burst out crying or scream 'gd riddance'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i tell you hor,whoeva is damn readin this blog..any guy who SCREAM at his girlfriend or ANY girl or any of the DOUBLE X chromosome or Hurt them in any bloody physically way Intentionally..go fuck you.you're not even a guy,you're just Shit..heck,you're not even shit,you're a negligible piece of molecule stuck under an elephant's foot which is not worth lookin,touchin,seein or even Worth existing in god's earth.

*rages*

i rather he stay away n leave with his goddamn woman n other family IF he has one or go and rot in his job..moving on...

the day started bad,and now its Ending bad..its enuf the mayflower pri. principal literally Popped in suddenly on the taekwondo students at like god-forbidding hour 7am!! to find that ma'am,sir,me,teacher-in-charge were not around n the students were tearin each others' necks n hearts out..then sir was confidin in me abt his federation's meetin yesterday which ended late coz of bureaucracy..bleah..i realised i Talk n Confide n Trust him more than my own father..ironic,sad..true..sigh..i still remember him askin me during my jc days 'are you sure your Maths is ok?' with that knowin look in his eyes..dad didnt even bother to go with me to the parents-teachers meeting coz he had to Work..i remember i ranted n bawled at mum at how dad gave up on me even b4 my a'levels..n guiltily i remembered i made her cried that day oso :s..horrible daughter me..maybe its juz me..

anyway,yea..goin there to help ma'am n sir always Lighten or Dampen my moods..always got somethin to do besides helpin them with taekwondo..settle fights,settle tears,discipline,play around,Scream!,laugh,be enlightened..like today i saw chadwin suddenly sittin down n crying,n yong tat was comfortin him like the senior belt he is..i went over..here how it went

me:eh,why you cry?somebody beat you up issit?dont cry lei,tell me

chadwin:*sob sob*(with tears streaming down his cute face)

me:eh,what happened?yong tat,you know?

yong tat:dunno(pats chadwin back in attempt to comfort)

chadwin:(sob sob)..that yee hong and jason said that Fiona is my girlfriend!!!!(sobt sob)

me:(speechless)ehhh??(tryin hard not to grin like crazy.its a Serious matter to them horr!!)

me:who's fiona?she's in taekwondo ar

chadwin:NOo!!she's in arts n drama class up on stage(sob sob)

me:ermm..they disturbed u ar?fiona your gf?GOOOD wat..that means you HAndsome mah!!that means Girls want you lei.Fiona dont want them!!

chadwin:she's not my gf (sob sob)

me:but the 2 teased u with her right?so mayb she likes u?dat means you're MOre handsome than them Correct?dat means girls Want you,not them ah..see,handsome boy..dont cry already

me:you p4 got girls like you ah..last time I your age,no boys want me lei..:(

chadwin finally laughed..-.-!thanks hor,must sacrificed my lousy history wif boys to make u smile again arr!!then that Yee hong came n they started Cursin in front of me..-.-!i didnt realise my existence suddenly so transparent

so Tried to discipline Both of them with wat discipline i know ar..goes along the line 'eh you 2 shut up.i'm here lei n u two cursin in front of me how can like tat one..eh why you go,i never tell u to walk off right..come back here n apologise..you said 'sorry' ar?can u tell me you mean wat u say??come shake hands n apologise you two'..-.-~!! Etc etc...

i shud haf let them settle btw themselves coz its a guy thing in the end mah..must haf gotten the anger vibes from ma'am n sir..shit la,thats y i dont want be a teacher..i dont trust myself to say what i say to them ar..when angry,my mind n mouth not connected one..later hurt them accidentally,kena fired..the lesson didnt get any better also..got angry at one more bunch of students oso..i'm horrible~see ppl,i'm not so nice with children lei..can play play with them Yes,but they dunno their stuff that i've been Patiently tryin to teach or try to climb over my head,they watch out..garr!

anyway,i shall not bitch abt the new sem..caryn n lihui n the rest haf done that and more lol!just hated that t4 for pickin on me n the front row ppl..shit,must change my place la,tis Cannot continue!..the more she pick on me,the more stupider my answers were coz i cant b bothered listenin already..i hate these big blocks of Same lesson cramped together in one day in one continuous timeslot lei..cant concentrate!

t4=torturous,tramatic,terrible,tak guna!

oh ya,watched the show 'matahati'..this malay Ghost story on suria..n mum n me were laughing abt that ghost-guy character who Can dedicate songs on public radio for his girlfriend,and popped in and out by her side like aladdin's genie..its a v.weird show..the weirdest is when he said 'i am not a ghost'..then wat r u?o.O!n no,i didnt want to see whats the camera angles were like,or the directin..like azhar said,its mind-screwing la!as if i'm not screwed enough!!garr,No,NO,NO,NO and No..its a horrible thing to do,it brings down the credibility of the entertainment that the shows were supposed to deliver ba!!its real screwed!how he know i've been doin it all the time anyway?o.o..

this semester is Survivor period+fear factor!!i'm freaked~

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 10:38 PM