A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

wat a shitty end

i know i know..if my list for my perfect guy is so bloody long,its obvious i must take a good hard look at myself first ritez?ok ok ok..*stared at the mirror*hmmz..must shorten the list

guys must haf these priorities in their lives oso New*
their self-esteem(not too much)
no teacher's pet/mother's boy
family plays a VERY IMPT impt role in their life

that last one is thx to my dad..who nvr cum home for 4 nitez this week(i actually counted!)..which led to dire consequences n more pissing off by my mum to me..n she threatened to run away n dump sis at my grandma's hse again..she was goin on n on abt how long she can actually tolerate his lies n blah blah EVER SINCE THEIR MARRIAGE which is like 20yrs ago..sometimes i dont want her tolerate either..juz carry out n see what dad'll do..frankly,i dun tink he'll care That much la..he's not even home to care abt Us..if we're not around,its like a better opportunity for him ritez..anyway,i juz want her to be happy..n if dad cannot make her happy..then i dunno how...she told mi frankly she could just disappear n know that i can take care of myself..yea ritez..her main concern is sis as always..sigh,n dad reprimanded mi for a silly thing after i came home..like hello,u nvr see me so long n the 1st thing u did is scolded mi ar..

n he was tryin to iron his NEW shirts when i came home..mum was flat out on the bed sleepin already..tink she's pissed again..come home or not,she's sitll pissed at him..its not my problem,its theirs..cant they see tis will in future leave PSYCHOLOGICAL scars in me when i haf my own marriage?IF i ever haf my own marriage..lolx

yun sis n bro are gettin married..so cool..i cant wait for my chinese friends to get married,i wanna be bridesmaid hor,can can please?hha..malay weddings..urm..do wat?kendarat or serve drinks meh?can la,see them all dressed up n pretty *dreams*..meetin up wif them today was so nicee..we took our first neoprints of the year..n tried to compile our sec 4 classmates of 40 ppl..Success..=)..thx u two dearies..*hugs*
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*shocked*..omg,thats so cruel..i'm so damn hurt..kaoz..*silent*

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shit happens.deal with it girl.

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 12:11 AM