A Girl Like Me is Impossible to Find :)

i will survive

feeling a happy buzz after meeting up dear friends (not ex-colleagues but friends)...feeling that familiar closeness seeps in again...sometimes wish things were back as they were but never regret. sometimes, withous us knowing, leaving may have been the better option for us that only GOd knows..but leaving never means closing the door to the past forever...

and so i'm waiting to leave (yet again) ..there are so many questions arise but no one else i can depend on to answer them... so many dirty secrets and truths abound, hopping around like dust mites that it creeps me out, leaves me wondering why at times. sometimes i wonder if its me that's the problem, but if it's a mess from every corner, from the very first day that i came back..surely, there is something not right, but why...but yup, i'm looking forward to my next station in life - SCHOOOL!!! though it won't be full time, still, i'm going back to school finally! Hope i can get thru it all right...just can't wait (i know i won't be saying this once school starts)

and freedom awaits

..sometimes i wonder, if i had never come back, i would still be buzzed with the happy memories that once lingered...sometimes i wonder, maybe i should not have return to find what a mess it really is (there are so many times i wonder if its ME that's the mess, but i know there is a limit to the Messy me...) but yea, the real truth (real, i guess?) always hurt...but i will survive. "For this too, shall pass" Just hope i can do the best that i can and will...

but i came back, hoping to learn and i guessed i did, but not as much (or what i had actually wanted to learn) but learning does not stop here, that's for sure. once i leave, it doesn't mean it's a full stop. maybe, there will be better opportunities round the corner - opportunities that i can't even imagine and can't wait to embrace if they ever come along...

for now...i will survive :) i hope my reputation as an 'excellent wkr' does too....at least i met lovely people (whom i can definitely lean and learn from) along the way. thats what i love about production. for the dirty bits, its best to live and let live...

posted by Siti Nuraishah @ 11:25 PM